Hey Slices, it has been quite some time since I have blogged. Sorry. So straight up I got caught up in some sin and tried justifying it and ignoring the conviction but it was to destructive. I haven't been in the word until today and I missed it so much. The lies I was believing were and maybe still are pulling me away from Christ but I am crying out for help. I am re-understanding repentance and what it really means to walk with the Lord.
Obedience is so important and I haven't been. I miss my community that I have not been engaged in, I miss the word of God that was sustaining me, and I miss my relationship with my Creator. I have been refusing to be broken and surrender to God. I don't want to resist any more. I don't want to try to do this on my own.
Right now I am bearing more than I can handle and am having trouble handing it over to God. There is a numbness and a wall that I am hiding behind. Pray for God to continue leading me on the journey into my heart and give me the strength to work on the parts that hurt and that I do not want to let go of. Lord I ask you... help me cut the ropes that bind me to this sin and guilt. Lord give me peace in my decisions to fallow you and the courage to face my fears and struggles. Lord Im scared and feel alone, come find me! I don't want to live with sin!I don't want to live away from You.
KD3
