My Last night was tight! 11-20-11

     I know there were a lot of people at church last night but it was just for me!  Selfish right? NO!
God and His ultimate power has the ability to make every single one of us feel as if we are the only ones in the room.  He exceeds my comprehension every day.  He ripped open my chest and exposed my heart to perform last minute surgery.  God is the master mechanic and never fails.  We are never outside of His love and View.  I was slipping away and trying to run my own life but it hurts, it sucks, and I failed.
     The tornado I let grow inside of me snuck up by not being in the word, letting my desire for Him to grow weak, and not wanting to be in fellowship.  I lost my fire and passion.  I have entered my desert and my dark place but I am going to seek the Lord my God who waits on me always.  He has opened my eyes to lies I have been believing and places or people I have sought to heal me.  The journey into my heart has just begun to get interesting and with the Spirit leading me, I will find my stoke again.
    I love all of you slices so much and sorry I was weird last night for those of you who could tell.  My head got messed up but its being sorted out.  I thank God so much for every one of you.  I am staring to see just how important this is for us as a community and how much I need you and why the Lord wanted me here with you.  Thank you Slices

Love Richard (KD3)

Where's my motivation?

So something really amazing happened... It snowed! I am very happy and love to snowboard but I also love God and usually do not spend as much time with Him as I do boarding.  This saddens me.
For the past 6 months I have been on a elevator exploring my heart with God floor by floor learning more and more about myself and the Him.  I do not want this to stop but my desire to dig into the word and even do church things has slowed down and all I really see now is snow.  Even school has suffered and I really do not want to do anything but snowboard.
I sacrifice friendships, the Lord, relationships, and education for snowboard.  I do not want to be like this anymore.  My idol seems to be snowboarding and I do not want to let it go.  So I ask for prayer that my desires and priorities remain on the Lord and growing in Him as a disciple.
I really did not want to write this post or anything about God but He had other plans.  I must continue daily reading the word and asking the Spirit to keep taking me on the journey of my heart and reveal to me the dark hidden places that I don't want to let Him work on.  Im Going to call this the "4 Month Struggle."

Richard (KD3)

Over due blog

     Ok, so I have been insanely busy but it is going to calm down for a week before picking back up into light speed.  So last night at work I had an awesome night.  I made more money than I thought I was going to and had a great time.  I did however choose to eat a messed up slice of pizza in the wrong area where I knew I was not supposed to eat, on the clock I might add.  Of course I was caught and knew some sort of punishment was coming.  I was hoping for just a write up but I am suspended and written up.  this write up is my first and final.  I did how ever write an email to both of the managers involved apologizing for my direct disobedience.
    This is a very bad time for me not to be a able to work.  My medical bills for my leg have arrived, my car insurance went up, my truck costs me about a whole lot in gas(but I love my truck), and its snowboard season.  I know so far this is depressing but honestly for some reason I feel okay.  I know I screwed up and I know its going to be a rough week but I am really excited to see what God is going to do with this.
    I am asking anyone who reads this to pray for wisdom and direction for my extra time off.  Also where God wants me and what He wants me to do for school/career.  I personally have no clue.  Lately for the past few months I have felt the tug and pull on my heart to try to go to Biola.  I have had a lot of really neat reaffirmations.  My Grandfather says don't worry God will take care of it.  I have multiple friends there now who say don't worry about the money and just go.  My mom talked to a stranger who was a client of hers and she said to her that I am going to go there.  My mom said she was really emotional and almost in tears.  My name is now in this ladies wallet and she is praying for me.  She also said that her and her husband love to sponsor and donate to kids/students to help them.  Kinda weird and really cool.  If anyone has any words or images that come to mind I would love to here them.  I also do not know what I would want to major in.  To most people I would seem lost but I do not feel lost.  I feel out of control but that is exactly where I want to be.  Anyways this feels like a ramble but now I am going to share a couple things from my devotional that I that was so awesome, inspiring, and jest great!

The Lord guards you.
     the Lord is the shade that
   protects you from the sun.
The sun cannot hurt you durring
    the day,
  and the moon cannot hurt you
    at night.
The Lord will protect you from all
    dangers;
   he will guard your life.
The Lord will guard you as you
    come and go,
   both now and forever.

                         Psalms 121:5-8

The other is this
 I WILL WORSHIP
     "God, you are with me
and you can help me;
   You were with me when I was
taken, and you are with me now.
   You strengthen me.

  The God I serve is everywhere-
in heaven and earth and the sea,
   but he is above them all,
for all live in him:
   All were created by him,
and by him only do they remain.

     I will worship only the true God;
you will I carry in my heart;
No one on earth shall be able to
   separate me from you."
         
                   Quirinus of Siscia