I know there were a lot of people at church last night but it was just for me! Selfish right? NO!
God and His ultimate power has the ability to make every single one of us feel as if we are the only ones in the room. He exceeds my comprehension every day. He ripped open my chest and exposed my heart to perform last minute surgery. God is the master mechanic and never fails. We are never outside of His love and View. I was slipping away and trying to run my own life but it hurts, it sucks, and I failed.
The tornado I let grow inside of me snuck up by not being in the word, letting my desire for Him to grow weak, and not wanting to be in fellowship. I lost my fire and passion. I have entered my desert and my dark place but I am going to seek the Lord my God who waits on me always. He has opened my eyes to lies I have been believing and places or people I have sought to heal me. The journey into my heart has just begun to get interesting and with the Spirit leading me, I will find my stoke again.
I love all of you slices so much and sorry I was weird last night for those of you who could tell. My head got messed up but its being sorted out. I thank God so much for every one of you. I am staring to see just how important this is for us as a community and how much I need you and why the Lord wanted me here with you. Thank you Slices
Love Richard (KD3)
Hey Richard we are so blessed to have you in Circles and I am so happy to hear God tugging on your heart to keep in fellowship with him! I definitely understand what its like to feel "dry" in my own relationship with God... and it's awesome how certain things happen that feel like they are there JUST for us at JUST the right time. Praying for you friend (=
ReplyDeleteSo sick! Your a blessing man! Im gunna go pray now haha
ReplyDeleteRichard my man! It's always good when we share stuff like this and I'm glad I read it. You're a blessing dude and I'll be praying for you. Remember God has a plan for you and you're exactly where you need to be! <3
ReplyDeleteRichard, thanks so much for sharing this! I've been feeling exactly the same way lately, but didn't quite know how to put it into words. So glad you are in Circles! Praying for you =)
ReplyDeleteRichard thank you for your honesty. I really enjoyed getting to have some quality conversation with you last Sunday and I look forward to getting to know you more. Your post reminded me of Psalm 139. It is a great reminder that no matter where we go, God is there. Keep seeking his face.
ReplyDeleteThank you all! and Taylor it was great talking with you too. Also psalms 139 is my favorite psalm so kewl you reiterated that
ReplyDeleteI love how intimate God can be - I have totally had those moments of thinking "bummer everyone else had to sit through that service that was designed just for me" - ha!
ReplyDeleteyour honesty dude. i love it. "He has opened my eyes to lies I have been believing and places or people I have sought to heal me." i love it that he disciplines those he loves. big hug richy boy.
ReplyDeleteRichard, as I am reading your post, I am reminded how much I love this aspect of God. How he has made us communal and how I love that I get to pray for this with you! It was good last night to see you at the movie- hope there have been awesome changes since this post and can't wait to hear all about them!
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